I Need Help
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"You new single is called Help Me. What is it all about?"
"I need help"
I need help. I need help. I NEED HELP.
Three words. No more, no less. Don't need more, nor less.
Explains it all those words do.
Explains me, what I am, how I feel, what I do, who I am, why I am!
But they don't see it. No one sees it.
I say the words, speak them out loud, and people laugh. Don't take them seriously. I can ask for help all I want, but no one can hear me.
My song, it is what it is. But people can't see it.
Ever wonder why it is that way? Why people can't see?
They are blind.
The entire world is blind. Dark shades pulled over their eyes, blends shutting out everything, darkness hiding everything that I try to say.
My words getting lost in it all. Changed. Made into something else. A different meaning. My song doesn't say what I want it to say anymore.
People can't see what I'm trying to say.
I could shout it out, I NEED HELP, and they still think I am just playing them, just being me. Or, that is, the me they think I am, though the me I know is nothing like the one they do.
I know me better than them. They don't know the real me. Probably cause they can't see me. That blindness again. The darkness. Irritating that is. No one can see. No one but me.
I see.
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Thoughts.
My mind is full of those.
They fly around in there. Running by, trying to get to me. To become what I am. To change my views.
My thoughts are my worst enemy. My thoughts try to change me. They try to make me them. They try all the time.
But I won't let them win.
My thoughts will never win.
Because if I let them win, I let the world win. And if it wins, then I as well will live in darkness, be blind, and not be able to see who I really am anymore.
I would loose myself. And I don't want that to happen.
My thoughts are about what people tell me. My thoughts are about what I hear.
Not everything of course. I mean, I am not crazy or anything.
No, only what I hear a lot of actually find a home in my mind. Only those words have the ability to become thoughts. And even if they can be thoughts, only the strongest of them all have the power to take over my mind.
Those are the dangerous ones.
Those are the ones who wish to blind me, to make me loose myself, make me live in darkness.
But I fight hard, and they haven't won yet.
My thoughts wanna kill me, for darkness is death to me. To the real me, darkness is death.
I NEED HELP.
HELP ME.
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I'm not lost yet. I still know who I am, even if no one else does.
Not even you.
You can't see me. Not the real me. You see what you wanna see. Just like everybody else.
You're blind to the truth. You are in darkness. Lost there forever, unless I can help. Unless I can make you see again, open your eyes and let the light in, let the world in.
The world. A place where people wander, ignorant to the way things are, ignorant to everything.
I see it all, read it all, smell it all. It's everywhere.
The feel of nervousness, smell of fright, the look on the face of us all, the look of insecureness.
But see, things get mixed up. My thoughts, my deadly thoughts, they make me insecure at times. Make me question my own judgements and decitions. Makes you question your decitions as well.
At least they made him questions his.
Him.
Never told you about him did I?
Him.
The man of my dreams.
Around him, little was confusing, everything was clear, and my thoughts could not touch me.
Me and him, we were gonna live forever, as the saying goes.
It was gonne be us. That much I knew. Or thought I knew.
With him things were simple.
My thoughts couldn't get to me. The world didn't look as blind as it does now. Things were different. They were better.
He was everything to me. Called the older brother of the group by some, the sexy hunk by others. I fell into that second group, just in case you didn't figure that one out.
He was drop dead beautiful, and the world would shine on him, lights flow, eyes wide open, staring, loving, wanting.
Then it got to him. The thoughts. They got him first, made him leave, made him go blind, not seeing me, what we had, nothing.
The thoughts took him away from me. They took him. And with him, all the light in the world dissappeared.
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I'm lost.
Without him, there are no guides in the world.
No one who can help you through the darkness. No one who can lead you through the night.
He lead me for a while, until he lost his way.
Now I am the only one left. I am all the light that is left in the world.
But I won't give up.
I will not let you fall you in the darkness, I will not let it swallow you, I will not let it take away what you are, and make you what it wants you to be.
I will not let that happen.
As long as there is still light in this world, I will fight for us all.
I will. Swear I will. Always and always will I fight.
See, I don't like the darkness. Don't like it at all.
Nothing about it to like. Like nothing about it. Don't like it at all. At all don't like it.
Darkness is evil. Light is good.
Easy consept, yet, darkness is winning.
I fight, yet sometimes, nothing I can say is enough. Nothing I say will you believe.
I NEED HELP.
Need help to help.
Need help to kill the darkness, make the light live forever and ever.
I sing about it.
Long and happy songs, made to help you see the light.
To read it, to help me, to understand.
So many things you can do with a song.
So many messages you can send.
So many people you can help.
I can help.
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If you wish to understand who I am.
If you wish to know what I am.
If you wish to see me in the light.
If you wish....if you wish...if you wish.
You can wish all you want. They're always there.
Thoughts.
Dangerous they are. To me most of all.
You won't see. They've already got you.
Me they don't have. Me is the one who needs help.
But there are none to help me.
None out there who can.
But you.
Read the song.
Feel the song.
Be the song.
See me in the light, before it's too late.
Before my thoughts kill who I am, and I become what you are.
Lost in darkness without hope.
No hope because without me in the light, there are no heroes left in the world.
No one to save us.
No one to turn on the light.
Nothing that speaks the truth.
No song. No nothing. Just silence.
So read, read between the lines, know the truth, see the light, and find the real you.
I wish I could define
All the thoughts that cross my mind
They seem to big for me to choose
I don't know which ones to lose
And I've fallen down so far
I think I'll never see your light
Bouncing off of me
Shining down here from your eyes
Help me
Figure out the difference
Between right and wrong, weak and strong
Day and night where I belong
Help me
Make the right decision
Know which way to turn, lessons to learn
And just what my purpose is here
(Just what my purpose is here)
Oh yeah
It's like I got the signals crossed
With messages I can't decode
Half asleep never wide awake
In a complete overload
I got so much information here
And nothin I can really grasp
I should know the truth
But I'm too afraid so I have to ask
Help me (help me)
Figure out the difference
Between right and wrong, weak and strong
Day and night where I belong
Help me (help me)
Make the right decision
Know which way to turn, lessons to learn
And just what my purpose is here
Oh, wanna know you
More than anything
I need you
In my every dream you're there for me
You love me
For who I am
No angel
Just an ordinary man
Help me figure out
Why I'm stuck in the middle
Tryin' to understand
Why I can't quite, it's such a riddle
Got my eyes crossed, thinkin so hard
And I know I'm missin the mark
Can you help me sort out
All this information
I'm just rackin my brain
Payin attention
But I'm still lost
And at all costs
I (I)...I gotta know, gotta know
Help me (help me)
Figure out the difference (Figure out the difference)
Between right and wrong, weak and strong (oh yeah)
Day and night where I belong (I belong)
Help me (help me)
Make the right decision (oh yeah)
Know which way to turn, lessons to learn
And just what my purpose is here
(Just what my purpose is here)
Help me figure out (help me)
Why I'm stuck in the middle
Tryin to understand
Why I can't quite, it's such a riddle
Got my eyes crossed (eyes crossed)
Thinkin so hard
And I know I'm missin the mark
Can you help me sort out (help me)
All this information
I'm just rackin my brain
Payin attention
But I'm still lost
And at all costs
I ...I gotta know
FIN.