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I open my eyes slowly, welcoming this new and adventourus day.

It's another day in my life as a Backstreet Boy.

Make that a gay Backstreet Boy.

I turn, and my eyes fall on my lover, my baby, and the amazing sex god that we all love and want. Too bad for you I'm the only one who gets him.

Nicky is still sleeping, and I like it that way. I always did like to watch him sleep.

It could be because that is one of the few times he's actually still. When he's awake he tends to be all over the place. It's part of his charm, I guess.

I've gotten to do this a lot lately, wake up next to my boy, having a little time each day to study him while he's asleep, before a new day starts.

After all, our secret is out, has been for a few months.

I can still remember the days when we had to sneak around, had to watch our every move, had to restrain all the feelings we had for each other.

Of course, that was hard at times, as a few visits to some rather odd places can prove. I mean, what were we thinking. I seem to remember a sertain linen room, which was fun, a broom closet, sorry, TWO broom closets, a bathroom on a plane, and he list goes on.

It seems like a lifetime ago, but truth to be told it was just a few months.

It feels better now though. The whole world knows about me and Nick. I won't say that everybody's accepted us and taken us into their hearts, but at least most people seem to be trying.

Nick's parents aren't in that categoty.

They still seem to think we're damned, and since they found out I have been spoken about as the Little Devil, who likes to play basketball.

Well, we didn't expect everyone to understand Acutally we thought everybody would be against us. I'm glad to say we were proven wrong.

A lot have happened since that day when the world found out, and most of it is good.

Our album sold almost 2 million copies in it's first week of release. We didn't beat *NSYNC, but who cares. They were at the top of their career when they sold more than us, I doubt they'll do it again. We topped ourselves, and that was our goal. I hope we can do that again, top ourselves I mean.

After Christmas, which Nick had to spend with me, we started the new tour. The Black and Blue Tour 2001. It felt so good to be back on stage, and our fans loved it.

Most of them accept me and Nick. They support us, they love us, and some of them even scare me. I mean, how would you take it if a fifteen year old girl asked you which one is the woman in the relationship, or if Nick is good at giving head. I swear to God, the red color his face gets when he's asked these questions is priceless though. Me on the other hand don't blush. I swear it!

A lot have happened, and the tour is going great, and me and Nick are together forever.

I don't think life could be any more perfect.

*****

He's awake.

I know it.

Actually, I can feel his eyes on my back. It's like this tingle that you always get when someone is staring at you.

I'm used to it though.

I love the fact that he stares at me. And he loves to look. He does it every morning, which is why I always let him have some time to study me, even if I'm awake before him.

Sometimes it can be hard for me to lie still, but for my Brian, I could do anything.

I know we have to get up soon though.

We went to bed late last night, and since we fooled around a bit, we fell asleep even later. And today we have to travel to another venue. Now, usually, that is fun, since me and Brian share a bus, but today it won't be fun.

I blame Kevin.

And I have a good reason to do so. He is the one who called together this meeting that we're having. We are to talk about what to do when this first leg of the tour is over, among other things.

It is going to be hell, because we have to drive in Kevin's bus. The five of us, on his bus, for seven fuckings hours.

Oh yeah, that is going to be hell.

*****

He's awake. He has been for a while, yet he lies still, and lets me study him.

Then he opens his eyes, and look into my own, lifting his head to give me a good morning kiss.

I open my mouth, and for a few, short minutes, we let our tongues battle, ignoring everything else, concentrating on feeling, tasting and harvesting each other. We need this now, if we are to survive on Kevin's bus.

"We gotta get moving" he states, and I nod.

"Yep" I reply, and kiss him softly one more time before I get out of bed.

I'm naked, and I know that Nick is watching me as I walk towards the bathroom.

In the door I turn, and grins at him. I know that he wants to join me, but if he does, there is no way we are going to be on time.

"Won't be long" I say, and close the door behind me.

"Fucker" Nick yells after me, laughter evident in his voice.

I let the water run for a few seconds before I step into the shower.

The image of Nick enters my mind at once, and I have to fight to get it out of my head.

I cannot deal with a hard-on now. I do not have the time. And besides, I hate jerking off. I have Nick now, and getting me off is his job, not my hand's.

I wash up quickly, and step out of the shower again, leaving it running. Nick will be in there in a few minutes anyway.

I grab a towel and put it around my waist, before I open the door and walk back into the bedroom to find some clothes and to dry myself off.

Nick walk over to me, naked, blowing me a kiss as he passes, before he disappears into the bathroom, stepping into the shower to clean up.

When he returns I've already gotten dressed, and I sit down on the bed, watching him dry off and get dressed. He does it in almost slow motion, as if he is putting on a show for me. I laugh and clap my hands, playing along as best as I can.

Man, I love him.

When he's done I grab a hold of his collar, and bring him in close for another kiss. Our tongues continue the battle from before, as our hands explore each others bodies.

A knock on the door stop us before it goes too far.

"Nick. Brian. Time to go. You better be packed, and dressed. I'm coming in."

That's AJ, and we both turn towards him as he enters through the door, which I cannot seem to remember unlocking. Kevin must have given him the extra card then.

"Good, you're dressed. Kevin told me to come and get you two" he says, a smile planted on his face.

"Yeah, we're dressed" I say, and Nick let's go off me, walking over to where our bags are standing, packed and ready to go.

"Let's get going then, before the almighty Kevin goes red in the face" he says, and pick up his bag.

I grin, and walk over to him.

"Yeah, cause that would be bad."

 

 

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